Following the last post, I'll start reading like an old broken track.

Seeing as its a slow moving night, I decided to mull over the what-happened and what-to-do-now.

To begin with, love isn't at all simple. Everything in life has never been simple. Whoever says they just want a simple life, you are cheating yourself of the truth.

It isn't simple pursuing the paperchase. It isn't simple giving up the paperchase for a dream. It isn't simple to give up a chance for a cushy job for a job which requires all your life. It isn't simple when you're not paid enough. It's not simple when you're misunderstood. It's not simple to be in a relationship. It certainly isn't simple to maintain it. It's extremely difficult to keep your love and faith when you are constantly misunderstood and not listened to.

When male ego shuts off all ears and sprouts out its nonsense, its plain irritating. When male pride cuts off two sided communication and insists on one, its plain hurting. When big macho assumes a simple "Sorry" will sweep all unheard words under the carpet, I am simply nothing but silence.

What compounds my silence further was the fact that I just reminded him of my stand just before the incident. AGAIN.

This is getting so tiring. This cycle is just so exhausting. I've no patience on this treadmill anymore. I'm running out of excuses to protect someone, who doesnt show he deserves it, from people who are hoping to protect me.

Seriously. What now. What now after all those big talk and small actions. What now.