With this new address, I hope it means a change of me.

I hope it means I'm no longer open to those I dont wish to know, have no wish to continue knowing and do not desire to keep in touch with.

I noticed my flunctuating moods. I kept most in check. I strived to sit on grim and plaster a smile.

But I'm not without emotions.

No matter how much suppression, it leaks to the surface. With the pressure on, it all but explodes right in the face of the perpetrator.

I refuse to let that happen once again. To wait till all the negative emotions boil over and a reversal to -what used to be- is no longer possible.

And so I have decided to detach myself and just let them flow over me before coming to a decision.

P.S. Here's to address your concerns.
When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you're distraught
And in pain without anyone

When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find you way home
Your can get there alone
It's okay

Once you say
"I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain"

-if i can last all those times, I can carry on my life this time. It will just be another fall, another attempt, another scar. But in time, it will heal again. Just this will take longer than the rest. Coz I have finally put in all I have.

But I cant stop till I've got what I want.-