One assignment down. A million zillion billion more to go. Still I feel pretty glad.

Everybody's making holiday plans. Makes me feel like it too. After the weeks and weeks of playing, it feels a little surreal to sit down to desk. In fact, its more than surreal to quit floating and come back down to earth. It's been like grasping at wispy clouds to settle down at desk to look through work schedule of the term. Till now, my ass has not found found any chance to sit at the desk as yet. Soon, I promise. Soon I will work.

Achievement of the term:
No MC.

That is until today. And even then it was coz I'm really sick. Not hangover. Not sleepiness. Not plain old laziness. Dear old weather. It wears me down like nobody's business. Menses adds on shit too. Sometimes I wish I aint a girl.

On a lighter note, the weekend with my baby was damn old fun. Just menses chained me down like a metal ball. There were times I practically fell off my chair about to fall asleep. Getting old is such a chore. Even clubbing on friday night became a chore. Simply because I was so tired. Still I had a nice time with my baby! He's one year older but it seems like it makes no difference lei. Still so cheeky....But I still love him! (Wah love is really disgusting.)

Alright go for ice cream. Another day.

This week has been hectic with the assignments due and meetings to have. School was horribly taxing on time not to mention the tuition. With 40more days to PSLE, I really wish time will go by fast fast.

But amidst all these mad rush to fulfil appointments, I found time to meet up with Ting! Finally after sucha long drought, I see her. Nothing much changed. We gossip, she's still neurotic, I'm still crazy, we still love to shop and eat and talk. She still is recommending sales, only its not clothes now, but men's line of facial care. But she did me a huge favour of tying a very nice ribbon for me! Thank you!

Luckily amongst all these, I got last night's plans all sorted out perfectly. It really is no joke pulling everything together, I really wonder how those professionals pull it off. Especially when baby does something unexpected that all of us turn into the gan chiong spider, coz we have to plan around it now. Still, I'm glad I had all the help I need and the cooperation! Yay!! Though things may change n change, somehow everything falls into place. Divine intervention! Even bigger YAY!!

Fun part of the night:
That expression. Priceless.

Everybody agreed on that. Anyway, thank yous Eddie, Claudia, Mango & Benji! Love you long time bao beis.

All those must be getting to my head now. Rest.
I'll do a more detailed entry when weekend's over.

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
(Eh, I dont think all of us behave the same way we do in every situation with everyone right? crap)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
(This only means I'm serious right....? Not that I want to settle down right....?)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
(Like heart thumping and swooning into a coma? Oh no......that means......nvm........)

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
( I am a very serious person. Super serious. Really.)

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
(Whoever did this quiz got this answer. Does it mean everyone is the same?)

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
(I'm a very faithful person. I only have one job in mind.)

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
(Nobody wont try right? Stupid sweeping statement.)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
(Okies, maybe, I said maybe only, this is true)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(What heart?)
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Did this test. Quite true....actually, its the truth....
If everybody is the same. Stupid.

After I bought this, I swear my knee feels a lot slightly better. (Cross my heart out & swear)

Bimbo skin finally.

What the f***

Monday is ending in one hour. Tuesday will be over in 24 1/2 hrs. Wed will be over in 481/2 hrs. Thurs...............blah blah blah...

The stupid week is purposely swaggering its ass in front of my impatient face.

ARGH!!! Cant wait for saturday.

I can only hope all the dinner dates will make my week feel better.

Anyway, love makes us such terribly horrifying disgusting creatures. Its not only me I swear. Even steady Jess too! Oh well, I'm enjoying being this terribly horrifying disgusting creature at present.

I miss my baby!!Think he hasnt got any auto roaming on.

Oh well oh well! Saturday please hurry your ass up! I promise I'll be a good girl!

This Damn Thing called SCHOOL

"Girl, join us for the boys' night at St James lei"
"Cannot. Got school tml."

"Baobei, shopping 2mr?"
"Cannot lei. Got school lei."

"Ms Tan Wen Qi, the new stocks just arrived. Do you still want me to keep aside some for you till tml?"
"Its ok. I got school. No time. Thank you."

"Xiao Jie, can go for coffee tonight ma?"
"Cannot la, got school in the morning la."

"When shall we go for our sentosa huh?"
"Duno lei. Got school everyday lei."

RRRRRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR

I DO NOT LIKE SCHOOL AT ALL!

When I was teaching, I was grumbling about the work load. But at least I get to go off at 1.30pm promptly everyday. It's just pack and ciao.

Back to schooling for myself, it sucks. Coz the personnels planning timetable are imbeciles. So I get full 5 day study week but only 2hrs each day. It doesnt help that school is light years away. I age 20yrs on the train every single trip.

You know what they say about people being younger when they travel in light years and all? That's crap. That's the mad scientist's stand. Trust me. It doesnt help at all. Not even Chanel Blanc Essentiel can help you if you have to travel to my school to study. Nothing helps.

Nothing except when you own a car. Or when you know someone who is driving and can pick you up. Or when you can drive and your daddy is overseas and you can drive his car. Or my 5Charity girls decided enough is enough and decided to burn down the school. Or when your bank is so full of moola and you can afford to just wave your arm along the road everyday.

Speaking of which, I had an ultra divine spiritual day yesterday. First day of school. The usual gossip - someone's friend's sister's in-law's cousin's friend is now attached to this so-and-so blah blah blah. Not interesting. Teachers are boring. Trainee teachers are even boring-er if possible. But that's not the point.

The point is, there were empty cabs driving around in school! Without hall, I decided I should be a reformed character, attending tutorials and lectures faithfully, taking the public transport loyally. Yet God was trying to communicate to me. The first empty cab drifted by, and I looked away quickly. The 2nd empty cab rolled by and I checked my chipped nails again. 3rd cab inched across my horizon and I stared determinedly into the space where the bus will appear. 4th cab positively slither by and I SWEAR GOD WAS TESTING ME.

I resisted the temptation though and sat firmly on the hard stones NIE call seats. Oh well, Dear Father, Your Son shall not suffer in vain.

Then....the 5th cab dropped off passengers in front of me....and I finally got enlightened. It was a sign from God to take a cab. God was practically pushing me into the cab. So I decided I shall not rebel anymore and just hop on the cab as pre-destined.

You have to believe me. In a secluded cement jungle like school, it is considered your lucky day if you can get an empty cab. It is a phenomenon if you encounter 2 empty cabs. It becomes a supernatural occurrence if you see 3 empty cabs. So my experience of 5 empty cabs juz prove my point. It is simply divine intervention.

Another matter altogether. I have no idea why my students like me or why I like my students or why my CTs are so nice or why my supervisor is so cool and lax. I have no idea. CTs, supervisors wise, I guess we can complain to NIE. But of all stories I heard, Huda has to fear the worse. My god! I really admire that girl for enduring everything silently. Students wise, maybe I put gong tao on them. Otherwise I cant explain this chemistry sizzling between them and I too.

Anyway, just to re-iterate my point, I dont survive on riches. I dont thrive on bling blings. Everybody loves a dash of moola loving once in a while. So dont get me wrong just based on the clothes on my back, the shoes on my feet, the paint on my nails, the label on my phone. Its not even my freaking phone. And no, my baby is taken and no, his friends are not interested in girlfriends at the moment. Plus, I swear no more "new sem, new beginning, new bf". It's just the occupational disease. Got to kick this re-train habit. But if your interested in my training bf lesson plans, especially financial wise, please just drop me a line.

And here, I end my ramblings for the day.

Its not in my place to categorise people as "can make it", "may make it" or "already there". Yet sometimes, as I rub shoulders with the throngs of strangers along the streets, I find myself appraising another being's worth. The clothes on their back, the bags swinging from the sides, the people hanging on their arms, the babies gurgling in the prams, the names emblazoned on the accessories. It all adds up to the degree of pedigree isnt it?


Apparently not. Who would have guessed a woman dressed in beach slippers digging through a par-sa black armpit wallet will ring up thousand dollars worth of clothes at Bebe? Who would have noticed the Gucci decked out lady in Chanel shades is discreetly checking all wallets in her LV speedy30 for just a valid working credit card?



But if given a choice, and if I were born with balls and not a cunt, I would have gladly picked up the Gucci lady in a blink of an eye. The par-sa wallet aunty can wait for her next lifetime.



Because appearance is one and everything. End all, be all. Look beautiful, dress uptilt, made up right, carry all the right labels, speed off in that hundredthousanddollarsconvertible and you are going places. People flock even if you're just an empty shell.



I am making an effort to look beyond the number of credit cards and flea market shorts. But I can't help but love people-watching; write off stories in my head based on his/her appearance. I wonder if others do the same. Personally though, I think most just place your worth based on your appearance. Dress the part, get the deal. Dont step on my toes though, I will knock you unconcious with the huge padlock on my new bag.

Anyway, off the list of observations, it helps to look slightly aloof, a little contemptous, imperceptibly authoriative and marginally cold at first glance. Smile appreciatively and utter a soft thank you at any help rendered. And your shopping trip is extended enjoyably endlessly even if you're alone.

Oh, and dont forget that occasional bling bling stamped with the brands obscenely for all to see.

You'll be "one of the cool lambs" roaming the streets.

P.S. Dont forget to breathe as you practise. It takes massive guts and solid ego to pull it off. So dont forget to breathe.