Hey! Hey! You! You!

Thank you to all who has called/smsed/looked after me during this time.

I do love my bestest friends! I feel loved knowing you(s) care. Though I cant say I am better, I do FEEL better momentarily, whenever you(s) cheer me. Its good enough to know you(s) will drop everything to be with me, console the night away, check up on me with calls, treat me to fondue and simply let me vent my frustration driving like an avenging mad woman. I know most of the time I am incoherent. I apologise for that.

At times, I may forget to say thank you for all you(s)'ve done. But I wont forget the sweet comfort, the endless calls and smses, the surprises to cheer me up.

Sometimes, I may appear to take it all in stride and strong. But I'm glad you(s) saw through the facade and chiselled me out from the wall I've erected. I wont ever forget that.

Occasionally, I fall so deep into the abyss and cant see you(s). But I'm grateful to you(s) for pulling me back and holding my hand. I cant forget that.

My life hasnt dip so low ever since......god-knows-when. Once, I said if I'm careful, I'll forget how hard I can cry. Evidently the swollen eyes say it all no matter how I hide. No amount of concealer can help me. I do try so hard to put everything behind. Just that it's not done with me yet. I strive hard to stay happy. But I can't make it stay with me.

Some one told me: "Even with the sweetest smile you muster, the cheery front you carry, I see you breaking inside. Let all your emotions run. You'll feel better."

To this someone:

Some day, I will wake up rested.

One day, I will walk out with my head high.

In the meantime, thank you for holding my hand through.

Thank you, all of you. You know who you are. Really.

I just want it all to be over. Over. Then maybe, just maybe, I can be happy again.