I'm so freaking bored, I played House of Dead 3times over, constructed three billionaire Sim's homes, gone shopping with mama, rot my insides out with cookies and just lie in the middle of nowhere for an hour, obstructing the path of my parents.

One damn big sigh!!!!!

So I on my webcam for Jassy and he can hear everything over my mic! But i have no idea how to off it. So basically he heard me laughing my head off and chided me off for using PMS as an excuse for ..... (private).

I feel so restless nowadays with nothing to do, nothing to occupy me, nothing nothing nothing. To put it mildly, I am so darn bored even sitting is an occupation now. So I resorted to chatting. Which brings to mind People.

No girls can walk out of any place feeling 100% confidence. It just is in our nature. But what's even worse is the innate rising of inadequacies.

L is for the way you look at me.
When a guy stares, anybody's first reaction, "Is there something on my face or teeth?" I worry about my clothes, shoes, bag, face everytime I step out. Do I measure up to the benchmark set by magazines? Does everything match up to a style? Is there anything out of place? I swear its impossible to pass by anybody and not compare. I dont know about you, but I do. Jes and I spent hours looking at those stick insects crossing our paths, Ting and I firmly believe either there's something wrong with our DNA makeup or those stick insects dont eat at all. So, tell me why you look at me.

O is for the only one I see.
Sometimes I wonder what does him/her see in him/her? What makes a beautiful person fall for an ugly duckling? There must be something special within. I witness a little dot of a girl hugging/touching/kissing her toad of a bf just. And I cant help but wonder what is it like to love that toad so much to withstand kissing that toad? What is it like to go to bed with him? At that thought, I just shuddered and turn away. Im not suggesting Im the best of my kind. But if anything, I look presentable at least. Kissing/hugging/going to bed with me shouldnt scar anyone permanently. I admire that girl. All my due respect!

V is very very extraordinary!
Everybody needs a chemistry to get a relationship going. But how do you explain this chemistry? I cant explain it too. When edmund asked how do I tell when I'm in love, I was at a lost. To Jes, verbal assurance is just that, verbal. Anybody with a glib tongue can paint you the world. But when someone misses you and buys you all the thing you crave at your whip, that's solid confirmation of his affection for you. To Ting, its being able to have understand each other . He can do everything he thought you want, and you just wont be moved. But he can just say what's on your mind, you'll be melted ice cream in his palms.

E is even more than anyone that you adore.
When you meet someone you adore, you throw all caution to the wind and to hell with consequences. When you adore him/her, you just make all time for her and her alone.
Adoration: fervent, devoted love.
How many times do you devote yourself to someone only to be betrayed? It isnt the best feeling in the world, but somehow the worst always finds its way to your door.
Is it that hard to find someone to adore you? No I dont think so. What is so difficult is learning to pick him out from the sea of unknowns.

Love is more than just a game for two. Two in love can make it. Take my heart but please dont break it. Love is meant for me and you.
Seriously, dont ever break anybody's heart. Though I in no position to preach this, it is still what I have to say. Dont break people's heart coz you wont want yours broken too. What can be worse is when your heart didnt shatter instantly, but peeled off layer by layer by disappointments. The torment of deciding pulling out this thorn or leaving it in to infect your heart. Your heart aches. Your heart breaks. When it does, cry and scream all you want. But have it stuck together together. Love again. For if there's anything worth living for, its being able to love and be loved again. You are one step closer to your Right One. I'd say, rejoice! Love is a many splendid thing. And I certainly wont mind if he put it down in words. BUT actions speaks louder than words, that's what I'll stick by.

What I cant stand is whining about inadequate bfs. If he is, kick him to the curb. Or pull him up to task. Tell him to sms/call you if he doesnt. Inform him about your insecurities if that's nagging you. Drop him a line to tell him you miss him if he doesnt. Do something! Telling me wont help anything! Im not your bf for god's sake! Dont play games with a complicated set of rules. Shyness holds you back from telling him about his missing smses, sms him! Guys get a hint at some point. In any case, get over yourself!

Another matter althogether, but if you want a sugardaddy, its really preferrable to get someone whom you do know. After all, time spent together yeilds some understanding. Meet, shop, he pay for your expenses, you pay back with the horizontal dance. Simple. You know what buttons to push, no new territories to explore. Most importantly, you can cut the coy act and tell him what you want straight to the face.

So hey, I want that Bebe dress okies?

3 new shoes and one donut to boot. Ending my day.

At least I know I will be occupied tomorrow whole day! Eddie and Shuan day!

P.S. If I pick up the phone with a very hooligan WHAT, dat's just the PMS talking. Pardon me!