Alright! Jian Xiang, you are very pitiful! Coz you have details in camp at 3am, okies??

Geez. People can get happy like that.

Anyway, I miss my old man even though we just met. Supposed to go Liquid Kitchen. Instead we've got time left for only a quick dinner at ChompChomp.

Btw, I miss popiah too!

I miss my Ah Ma's dishes.....I miss home cooked food.

When your best friend's a guy, you wont expect much except loyalty. And given my temper, I know only you can put up with all my crap and still smile at me. So I am sorry if I've neglected you all these days okies? I never treated you like a toy alright?

It seems I've been rubbing people the wrong way for the past days. Even my dear old man. Old man, I do love you and miss you too. And I promise I wont pinch and bite you......not as much....alright? Hope those kisses work for your tests! (My poor old man has been mugging for tests which he forgot about. My dumbness is contagious, apparently)

Only DragonMom is getting along with me just fine. I guess me staying home is working in my case. She and daddy have been indulging in my every whim. Well.....almost all....What carrot cake, rice cake, tang yuan, prawns, abalone....all these pampering at home will make hall living so much harder. Luckily I stay with old man most nights.

I think DragonMom somehow knows I stay with Ah Xuan. I was happily eating the rice cake when she asked what old man will be when he graduated.

"Electrical engineer ba."

"Orh.....good lor! Then when you marry, he can pick you up after work. You can teach your own kids, he can provide support. Nice lor. Engineer n teacher. Good. Professionals"

She can't wait to marry me off.

Its the start of holidays! And I've already finished watching a serial. Between mama and I, we finished a box of tissues sobbing over the tragic end. I thought only Korean dramas are tear jerkers. No more Hongkie dramas. Better start the assignments.

Its time to shop for more books anyway.(I havn't been shopping for a month! Even for clothes) Those Jane Austen collectibles couldn't even last me a month. DragonMom swears she's done with my books. She's been threatening to throw out my bookshelves if she sees me filling up another shelf with books. Old man! We have to go Ikea soon! Meatballs, chicken wings, princess cakes......

Old man bought me the tang yuan from China town! Still the cravings are not done. There's corn muffin and cheese macaroni from Kenny's. I've been getting intense cravings late at night. Like I'm pregnant or something. Speaking of pregnancy, DragonMom just told me "Dont anyhow anyhow with Ah Xuan ar. Wear wedding dress with big big tummy is not nice hor." So i can only reply "Yes mommy" Ah Xuan ar, must listen ar.

And she proceeded to nag me. Tell Ah Xuan must study hard. Otherwise he can't yang you. You must study hard so you can be a good teacher. Blah blah blah.

After that warning, "Oei where can buy corsets? Must be good ones lei. Wear le can have nice boobies" I dont want to know what goes on that bedroom........

My Dear Cookie Monster,

It’s been 7 years since we’ve crossed each other’s paths. We were the nerds amongst a class of crap. We laughed our mouths big with all the mocking of Ng Beloh. We passed sneaky glances when she ran out of class crying. We rolled our eyes at each other at the stupid stunts NPCC made us do. You listened to me whined about my silly crush on Kitson(looking back, I wonder if my dad neglected to check my eye degree for that year).

Then we lost each other from Sec3 onwards coz our mommies decided our stay at BTSS has diminished our chances of getting a proper education. The next time I see you, there you were sitting in my CLA class! We picked up where we left off, only this time round, we have Eddie to gay-ise our lessons and Ting to miss a beat about our conversations. We had so much funning in Jiang Jing’s class, eddie & i discussing fashion across you, ting & i talking crap besides you, you & I chatting endlessly throughout the lesson.

Then we found ourselves despairing over our screwed up A-levels. And we were even almost going over together if I had signed it with you. Still, we find comfort in meeting up once in a blue moon coz we knew we were still on the same sunny island. Then you said you’re crossing an ocean. And we’re losing you!

Cookie Monster, I didn’t know I would survive my days in hostel initially. I cried myself silly for the first week coz my mommy ignored me. I refused to cook coz the pantry is on another level. But you’ll be so much better than me coz you’re determined. & I’m always online if anything! I hope you wont miss home too much coz you’ll be back in Oct! We can count the days till then!

Until then Cookie Monster! Miss you!

First day of new year over just like that....

Same old same old every year. Routine routine routine. Except Brett tan is off to army and he's got guard duty, so new year with us. He complained about the food in cook house. I hope the KFC makes up for it. My poor Brett! He's on duty now! Shall wish him nite nite.

Year in year out, we see the same people for every occasion. But I seldom get to see my mama's side of cousins. And both of them are back today, albeit with one new addition. But its time for him to bring her home anyway. Just feel so sian though. I swear my ass has rotten 100 times.

Its only thanks to Technician and Jassy for pulling me through this day!!!

Thank yous Technician!!!(though ur such a mean ass, LOL)

Thank you Jassy for being silly!

Happy New Year All! *muack*

I snapped. Like a piece of overheated wire. I snapped up so bad I am so very mean. I snapped to the point of being mental. I snapped so hard my emotions could not be held in check. And I am so ashamed that Jeremy managed this feat. I am so deeply ashamed Jeremy still got a reaction from me. I am ashamed to my bones that I allow Jeremy to do this to me.

I dont understand it all. If you love someone, and wish to give her happiness, you would do everything within your reach to keep her sane and happy, wont you? If you wish someone well, you would go out of your way to make sure every broken glass is cleared out of her path, wont you? If you miss someone so much, you would watch her and aid her in the shadows, being contented to be near but invisible wont you?

I gave you leeway time and time again. I consoled you when your grief was too much to bear. I listened when you pour your sobs on my frame again and again. But there is only so much I can take.

You knew me from the beginning. You knew it would come to this when I'm backed into a corner. You knew snapping was the only next available emotion. And I am very sorry I threw up on your one very good shirt. But you make me sick. You make me very sick. You make my stomach retched and wasted my undigested dinner. You make me feel irritation and disgust with your actions.

I only wish I have more to hold onto and maybe just pull through. I just cant believe I snapped and just like that, I'm back to square one, a mass of jumbled craze. Thank you Jeremy. And Happy Valentine's to you too.

"Baby, look! Someone send you flowers!"

Dearest Old Man picked it up and commented, "Wah....so beautiful."

"Ya! No cards lei....I think its Spongebod. *Sigh* He remembers even though he's so busy travelling the world to autograph kiddy's tummies"


WAHAHAHA

Oh well! He IS L.ame.K.ing. Can't complain much about yesterday, though is V day my dear old man, not ahem ahem ahhhhheemm. Not to mention he is falling ill! Then I can nurse my baby for CNY! Miss-sy Tan~ haa~ I liiiikee

"Wei Baby, why can't I kiss you?"

"Just no lor"

"Unless you see this right...."

And he pulled a box of godiva out of nowhere!

And therefore! That's my Valentine's with my dear old man!

I have a happy head, happy hands, happy mouth, happy stomach, happy eyes, happy blah blah blah.

To my very babes, hope you guys enjoyed too!

Its E-learning week which means I am supposed to log online and complete work at my own pace. Which also means this lazybum will lay off all work till the very very late minute. It didnt help that I decided to move back home, all the late nights and sleeping in. I was thinking after all, CNY is coming up and I could use the time to clear up the clutter in my room, get some back log work done, pen in some entries and spend some time with someone.

Only to have to spend my very last dollar to a doctor's visit, my mom telling me she has to go for an op, a torn and dusty Teddy from my very own overzealous Baby, a freaking laptop which blanks out on me and getting pretty much fscrewed up in all aspects.

So much for a bloody happy new year. So much for looking forward to new stuff. Suddenly, everything is too much. The light is getting too bright, feet feels heavier and even drawing breath is such a hassle. Only studies offers the stability I crave. Work, music, studies. I wish work can bury me whole again. No more complains this time round. Just work work work. Moreover, it brings me money. I can't believe my bank has got only freaking 3digits, inclusive of dollars and cents.

oh great. now my freaking ipod's freaking out on me too.

fucking hell

"hey....r u free?"

"give me 15mins max"

"alright!"

Free ride home! Friendships. Platonic. (Though however much I explain, my mama cannot understand how is it possible. Geez)

"u woke up so late. you made it to class on time?"

"yea. woke at 2pm"

"god. you really need your hall."

"why do you think i insist upon it?"

Biggie! Its tendzil you're talking about. *slaps hand on forehead* Sometimes I wonder where your mind went! Anyway thanks for the puff. & ice cream. & jap curry. & donuts. & all the dinners! I'll make sure the next round's on me~

Still cant believe I survived on a mere chicken pie for a day. I really am hibernating soon....

Like now.

Audrey audrey.....*shakes head in disapproval*

Thy girl whose head flows a river of oil.....Thy beeeeyaaach who cooks her food with the oil from her hair....Thy fat tummy which sticks a plaster on a surface normal people call a face....

Science would have been so boring without that vast oil tank for us to gossip about. I thought her face was the result of a joke of God(walking around school though, He really REALLY exercises his humor A LOT). Then after the in depth discussion with Trissss & Sharf(who, like, rocks. wadeva), we conclude that her face is the result of her eating food cooked from all that stinky oil squeezed from her hair.

There! I did my Science lesson didnt I!?

BUT there's only so much depth an oily hair can afford our professor-styled minds, so we decided to have a pictorial micro-ICT lesson with Sharf's cam phone. The pictures sucks. I am looking more and more like a pile of shit.

And then of course I prefer looking like shit than being dead of a freak accident. Steve Irwin wins no doubt. But to die in an accident when others escapes with minor injuries is really really damn stupid.

If I were to die in a freak accident, it will be due to me sitting on the leg of a barbie accidentally and when I pull it out it tore a hole on my butt and I bleed to death coz all the ambulances in Sg were on dispatch.

It's looking dark again. I think its sleeping time.