I took my charger and packed my mouse. I came home to find I left my laptop in my hostel. Great.

Oh wait! I hear the water splashing in my head, hold on, let me go drain that excess water.

Bimbotic aside, my Didi finally came home and Baby came over for a day. He changed MUCH. Not drastically of coz. It'll only scare the shit out of my mom. But his attitude is changing gradually. I'm not complaining. Hasn't gotten much darker. Didnt get the rippling muscles. Yet. But he looks like a ninja turtle.

& Baby came over with us to send him back to Pasir Ris. Apparently, all the men is uniform scare her a little. She was latched onto my legs practically, only releasing the grip when they moved off. And here I thought men in green are so nice to look at. Geez.

Moved on to send my Didi's gf to orchard and winded in Marina for dinner. Baby was so excited at Mini Toons and BearyHip, exclaiming over the cuteness of "pigpig" and naming all the animals and characters she can see. Its joyous to watch a child gibbering on and on squirming in delight. For awhile, I wish I were still a child. Love those cuties she might, she didnt want to adopt any home. Funny little baby. I love her!

Meanwhile, I have to get into the mood for studies. Let's start with printing the notes.

Spent a lazy day at old man's place yesterday before going for Sakae buffet. Lazy bum....

No mood to update much.

But I feel my hibernating season approaching...

Seems like a long time since I've blogged. But ever since there's old man, school and babes, I felt like I've been caught up in a tide of tasks. Remember this and remind that, bring this to school and buy that back. Hopefully this brain of mine has the capacity to hold my stuff. Otherwise my walls will be full of post-it pads.

Anyway Didi has got into NS with us sending him off to Tekong. Seriously, he looks so man amongst those noobs. The glasses, shirts, jeans and bags. So typical of JC nerds. Didi says "so far so good". I hope he's really coping and learning life. Well, my Didi shall sail through coz he's a MAN.

I'm not sure how he is with the gf. Apparently not very well. NS kills tonnes. Any gf with a bf in NS will know. But surprisingly, I find he'll make a good bf. My Didi I mean. The other night, Jiao Jiao & Xuxu mentioned he seems very emo. Somehow emo guys always make the good bfs. They pamper more, they speak more and how people say actions speak louder than words. He puts her pic on his psp, hp, msn, friendster too I believe. I believe he's good with words too. Which girl has complains about that?? Definitely not me!

Which brings to mind why is it so hard for a bf to tell a gf what he feels?? Alvin says he's so afraid. Afraid of what?? Boys and their delicate feelings.

Speaking of bfs, I see my dear old man practically everyday! The honeymoon stage. & gosh the kind of things he comes up with! Haha looking at him, I really wonder where does those crap swell from. A little sick considering we are still happy but I wonder when will the sky fall again? I may have forgotten how hard I can cry if Im careful. People dont think of relationships the way I do I know. Its sick to think of things this way I admit. Dwelling brings only so much as Jason says. But its a me I cant get rid of.

Moving on, with classes already swinging, the assignments pour in. I hope I clear them up before my term break. The workload's considerably heavier this sem. Plus the fact that I stay in hostel, I really am getting busy (with chores, school, my old man).

I wish that lady at home realises it though. I understand how both Didi and I are out of the house and she has nobody for company. But that doesnt warrent calls everyday every night every second. I do have a life to live too.

Last night reminds me of all the old times I had to endure at home. I asked Ting before if her sister still affects her. She answered in the affirmative. I believe those who has torn into us has left us with a permanent scar. I realised will never be able to get over that fear, however much it has diminshed since the old days. Even while I have my life, she will still come back to haunt me time and time again. So much so she has appeared in my dreams. I remember flashing back to a fight we had before except I lashed back in dreamland. I asked old man if I kicked him. Luckily I didnt reenact my dream.

Just when I thought I've finally pulled clear of the claws, it grips onto my fear again. I wish I didnt know such a phobia. If such things are possible, I'll be diagnoised with mother-phobic.

Its raining again. Somehow the grey slate skews my world dull again. Shall wallow in my blanket of ghosts. Geez.

My dumb dumb wants to talk to you

Caught Night at the Museum with JianXiang. I've heard all about the hype long before I've watched the show. Seriously, it wasnt all that uber uber. The subtle jokes were good though. There's a big stone which keeps calling Ben Stiller dumbdumb and asking for gum gum.

I want a dumbdumb as well!

On the way home, this gay couple stepped into the train hand in hand. I can positively hear the unison of gasp of the cabin through the music blasting in my ears. Picture says a thousand words. I've never seen a message being declared any more louder than that pair of hands. I envy and admire them. You cant deny you have to admire their courage for facing the gushing protests and disapproval. And you have to envy them for finding love among a restricted community. Frankly, it should be quite difficult for them.

Watching Jing Zhi Yu Ye~ Blog some other day!

I have a body clock which tells me to wake up even if I am very tired. And I am so very tired! I am so worn out now. So I got my mama to finally agree to get me sleeping pills! I miss the effects! Although it means I’ll be out cold for quite some time... I seriously doubt if my Softie family has complaints about it though. Most probably they’re rejoicing the fact that I’ll snuggle under the comforter with them longer.

My timetable’s out this afternoon too. Last sem I had life easy. This time round, I feel like jumping straight at the administrator and rave like a mad woman. Much as I enjoy staying in hostel, I don’t fancy being holed up there for full 5 days! Previously, even with Jer settling my dinner every night, I felt so closed in and lost. It’s going to get worse now! I wished I accepted daddy’s offer of getting a car and forgoing the hostel. Now everything’s too late.

Still, *technician promises to drop by after work as often as possible! Then I can have my chicken wings!

I shall miss my own room. I have only two nights left with it! Jian Xiang and Darren were complaining they have not got to see my room! Shall take pics of it and put it up soon.

Oh no, mama’s complaining about my face again. For some reason, my hormones have gone hay wire and wreaked havoc on my face. Mama says I cannot “waste my face” whatever that means and marched me determinedly for a facial at aunt’s. Compensation: I got lip gloss I wanted~ Haa~ My Yi Ma says I’m very lovable neh! Thus the lip gloss!

I can feel the pills in my blood le~ Got to go to beddie’s arms!

Gobi

When the brother was still having tuition at Katong mall, I passed by this cute shop on the 3rd floor. Judging from the Alice in the Wonderland kind of furniture, I didn’t expect cakes! They churn out mini cakes! And they have nice names for their cakes!

ARGH!! And now Didi’s not going for tuition anymore!

One of the cakes, Sweet Something, reminds me of a cake my mama bought for Baby. And it reminds me kids don’t deserve cakes. NOT AT ALL! The princess cake my mama bought ended up looking like bird shit in 5sec flat.

And Ting mentioned we should stay close to each other when we are married. Yet she insists on staying in Hougang while I want to remain in Punggol. So I promise I will drive the whole bunch of my cute devils to meet them.

Kitty’s ambition is to set up a fried chicken wing stall, Yun will be a xian qi liang mu and I want to be a taitai~ Haa~ Then she will shout at her Ah Yang and call him Pui Eh. And I’ll scream at my devils to shut up and stick their little asses to the car seats. Or I’ll perfect the art of the deadly stare.

When I was young…..whenever that scary beam of my mama lands on my skin, it tells my ass to marry the chair closest to me….Short, sweet and deadly all right…..

I can imagine. Yun’s kids will be the best behaved. Yun is always the best motherly sort. Ting will always forget she’s got kids. She intend to stuff them full of rice balls so she needn’t cook lor! I wont be shock if she’s got rice balls for kids.

My kids will be the cutest! But I wont mind them being devils. Then I’ll be the best mama~ Coz Im going to be a Miss. All the training in the world before I’ll have my own~ Geez. But I wont be shocked if my kids do look like my Softies Family.

Happy New Year~

Except I dont really feel that its happy or that its new. You go through the motions every year but does it really mean a thing? Seriously, to me Chinese New Year is still so much more festive to me. (Of coz there's the red packets la! Who doesnt like that!)

Anyway I woke up to find the world swimming. Xiao Bai is facing life threatening situation though. My mama threatens to cut off all her hair n ears if I carry it out somemore~ Haa~~ My BAo Bei! Nothing can happen to her! Otherwise what's the use of me being alive!

Okies, that's a tad too drastic.

But my daddy bought me a dress n quarter jeans~ Haa~~ New clothes for this year. Which reminds me I've got to go for make-up shopping soon.