Life's so full of if only. If only i were born into a rich family. If only i could be smart like a genius. If only i had studied harder. But there's only so much that you can do about your "if=only".

If only you had treated me better. If only you listened when I speak. If only you were willing to let people know about me. If only you hadnt kept me a secret. If only I had loved you just that bit more. If only you could have shown me you could love me. If only you held my hands longer when i needed the comfort. If only you stopped the tears you caused and stem the roots of problems. Then things wouldnt have turned out the way it is.

Humans regret every actions we've taken. We doubt the actions we are taking. We hope for the best for future actions. I dont need all these after Ive cried for it for so long, thank you. I just wish you understand that.

Anyway I have to move into my room early next week. I can only imagine the dust. If dust is sellable, I'll be a millionaire. Time to shop to being a housewife! Even for being a day! Actually Im looking forward to it! Housewife tendzil~

Xiao Bai's aging rapid ever since touchdown.....shall not bring her out to work tml....work...i wish i can crawl into bed and disappear forever.