I've finally kicked the habit of peeling skin off my finger!

Thing is, I didnt do it consciously.

November is so stuffed full of things-to-do, exams, friends, work, tuition, exams, assignments and school. I ran along the pace not even stopping for breath towards the end. Then I broke the finish tape and there's nothing left. I caught up short and found an intact skin on my forefinger. It felt so out of place amongst the rest. Like it went for a face-lift without the rest.

And I didnt even notice its discomfort until Noreen, the manicurist, told my mom I "changed for the better". Whatever that means. I understand how you look at my disfigured finger. But the thing is, if you look past the bleeding and the layers of skin, you'll see that I dont hurt at all. It didnt matter to me to have that habit.

But yous should be happy for me! Coz that habit's gone. Just I dont know if its for good or just staying at bay.

Or simply coz I just picked up the habit of peeling my lips. Only that this time round, you wont see the layers of skin or bleeding. Lips are always moistened by saliva. And saliva heals its wound easily.

And suddenly I missed being kissed. Or hugged. Or snuggled.

Or that's just the bed calling out to me. Nite!

Bree

If I were one of the desperate housewives, I'll be Bree. Or so I was told. Not by one, but by tonnes. I've got all traits of being a potential Bree. Including my freakiness.

Except I've got more on my list than her.

Like the fact that I enjoy horror. Yet I'm scared shitless by it. I remember not being able to sleep for two nights after watching Ju-on. And not wanting to bath at night for quite some time after Dark Waters came out. And ran out of my room when it darkens during raining.

I'm a vapid hoyden at times.

Which is why i should be a Gabrielle. Except I look nothing like her.

DAMN!

Is the world shrinking? Or are the rest getting smaller?

I was told I look cold and intimidate people. So are the prides of small guys getting bigger or their faces got too small to risk being rejected? Idiots!

I do mean to blog but somehow blogger's corked up. I tried posting our clubbing pics for an eternity, Girls! But it always got lost over the frequency waves.





Anyway I've got nothing to tell. Only ideas! Except maybe I want to get Nightmare b4 Xmas stuff! Plz do let me know where can I get it!

The girls & Me!

Miss yous!

Time for me to eat. I'm going to be my tummy's mommy!

I looked up into the sky. I saw the moon hanging high, black clouds threatening nearby. Then in a blink of the eye, the moon has disappeared behind a cloak of darkness.

Which brings to mind the false sense of security parents instill in children regarding darkness. They assure you there are no monsters lurking in the shadows, creepy-crawlies hiding under your bed, shadows sharpening their claws lying in wait & the Jack-O-Lanterns luring at you. They leave you to sleep amidst all these dangers and you dream a sweet dream under a blanket of hope.

& all proved wrong at the first knock of Bogeyman into your dreams. & your world crumbles,tilting in favour of the devil. Then you learn to feel fright, no longer just a word you learn in school.

Have you ever been in that trepidation?

I have. I am.

Where are you from??

After such a long time since I last heard it, it appeared today again.

"So....where are you from? Settling in Singapore?

"Eh.....I'm Singaporean.....its only natural I settle here yes?"

"Oh! I thought you're a foreigner!"





Broken record.

I've came across such questions and I always reply politely. But frankly, after a while it gets tiring. How does a "Singaporean" look like??

Its bad enough I have to answer these, sometimes, I get even more stupid questions.

Like:After I certify that I am a Singaporean, they ask"So....are you a mix?"





A mix?? What am I? Papaya & banana? Apple & orange? (Though I wont be surprised if I'm really a mixture of milk and chocolate)


What is it about me which doesnt seem Singaporean.......................................................


I dont know.

P.S. A groupmate told me today that she's registering her marriage in dec, got proposed to on Eiffel Tower on a surprise trip to France & getting married in a basilica in Poland. What do I lack?

Hello there,
the angel from my nightmare,
the shadow in the background of the mall,
the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley.

We can live like Jack and Sally if you want,
where u can always find me.

We'll have Halloween on Christmas,
& in this night we'll wish this never ends,
we'll wish this never end,
I miss u....

Where are you?
& I'm so sorry I cant sleep,
I cant dream tonight,
I need somebody,
& always, the strange sick darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime,
& as I stare I counted webs from all the spider,
catchin things & eating their insides,
like in the decision to call u & hear your voice of treason.

Can u come home & stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight....

I'm supposed to solve this riddle by tonight. But what the hell it means???

Harry Potter: Order of the Pheonix.

Finally its going to come out.

But I'm not anticipating it. After the last show, this sure is going to be a disappointment. However, as roomie says, we watch for the sake of watching. I mean I've grown up with Harry and Ron. I've flipped through all the books till they look old and tattered. I've laughed and cried( yes i cry reading or watching) and gone through six years of Hogwarts schooling. How can I not witness Harry's virgin kiss!!!!

But.....shouldnt it be with me?? I can be his sweetie pie~~

P.S. I heard "Fire" by Babyface on the radio and it reminds me so much of "Brown Eyes" by Destiny's child.

Romeo and Juliet
Sampson and Delilah
Baby you can bet
They were burnin' with desire

All the firsts and the greatest lovers. Who can be them in this era? Obviously no one.

Lets daydream about my Brown Eyes then.

And I find that I cant sleep till 4am everyday. Even if I force myself to lie on the bed. I should go stock up on books. I devour books like nobody's business. Oh no!!

P.P.S. Just as I want to post up, this DisneyLand commercial for Xmas comes up. Xmas soon~ Write Santa soon! I'm gonna be Santa's sugar!

i just want to sleep my whole day away. Lie in bed and close my eyes. Snuggle under the covers and pretend I am fine.

I feel so pregnant with the rice sitting in my tummy.

Anything logical is not my field. Period.

& dream a little dream of me.....

How apt!

Tyranny tyranny! Who can be better than me to talk about tyranny! I doubt if you have lived for 19years under a stifling thumb which thumbs you down as when it feels like it. Of course there'll be people out there living under the same circumstances as I did. But the only other person I know of is HuiTing. Kitty.

Those times of cutting classes, making fun of JiangJing and having Jer waiting for me after schools are so over. A year has passed since my A levels and we are all dispersed over this little island. I miss the Kitty fun, Edwin make-up and Yun's innocence. There's so many things which we went through together and survived! I'll never forgot that Commando Lee. That !@#*$&%^*#&%!

Initially, I wasn't even sure if I chose the right path in choosing JC. Frankly, my life there was pretty boring for the first year. I could not melt into the class. Though my PW mates were pretty diplomatic and tried to pull me into their activities, by the time I want to join in, it was too late. The girls had their own cliques. Cliques we may have, 04A06 was fun! From the very beginning of the day when Adam (pronounced ah-dumb) and Irawan were clowning around. We even participated in Dance Fest'05! Cool class!

But it wasnt all good and sunny there. I was with XiaoXia and HuiTing initially. However, I was so different them. We're like chalk and cheese. The only common factor was CLA. To this day, I could not answer Eunice's question of "Why do you hang out with XiaoXia?" Then Kitty & I found the true face of XiaoXia.

The very first day we confronted the new two-face was by the day we were late for the very first time. She was in obvious shock that we were appearing together even when she had worked hard to sow discord between both of us. We has the support of the class then. Lolz. My PW group was dragged through the whole ugly affair.

But life started looking up then. I inherited Yun from Kitty and Kitty got closer to Edwin through me. Of course we each had our reservations about Edwin at first. There's gay and then there's GAY. Edwin belongs to the catagory whereby GAY screams all over him. I tink the girls were dazzled a little by the display initially. But we learnt to work our way round and enjoyed ourselves in school!

In fact, life got crowded eventually. Yang's presence, Jer's appearnace, Jo's late joining and Masita. Everyone of us were on the same wagon!

& look at us all now! Edwin's serving the nation(while caring for his nails and face of course!), Yun fighting with the Dragon Babies, Kitty & Jo holding their fort in MDIS and the bfs all in NS. Not to mention I've earned a driving licence, spending power and salaries along the way.

I'm sure these changes are alright with me though.

Pictures!

I didnt realise I've accumulated tonnes of pictures until yesterday. Until I finally sit my ass down and slowly select the better pictures then do I know I've got 15 folders for pictures alone. Cam whoring took up the better half and Enen occupies the other half. Judging from the amount of pictures I took for every occasion, I'd better set aside a substantial amount for the pictures which I'm going to take on my trip.

Besides all the selection of pictures, I got down to business too. After a long drought of studies, it feels good but restless to get back to it. Thankfully I covered whatever was required of me. I dont ask for much. Just a pass will do. After all, I've been funning for the better part of the term. There's no point deluding myself, is there?

After this sem closes, it'll be holidays! As in real holidays! I'm going Taiwan! Speaking of which I almost could not go. With one kind of a person wanting to take charge, it's little surprise. Luckily, I've got my hideout here! Cant imagine how it'll be like in 2year's time when I have to move back into the house. I'm dreading it already.

So much slipped by without my knowing at home and it feels so much better.

Pretty Nails

After the intense week, a manicure and pedicure is much needed! It feels nice to have all the dead skin removed and the clean shiny nails to show. Such a pity that I could not complete my beauty regime with a hair cut and highlight. Ash's doing a show till 18th Nov.

Recently, this particular person tried to barge into my life again. I wish I did not do all the silly things. Then I would not have such an ugly mess to face now. I have only myself to blame.

elmo cheerios!

After the past few days, I've learnt to appreciate the slow life. The only good thing which comes out of these few days is that I like the process and I like the end product. Although the process involves more individual input than pair work which we should do, I can't blame my partner coz another group tied her down. Sometimes I wish the work could have been divided but she's so worn out. Just my luck.

Still, I've cleared the two projects!

Considering this week is my busy week, today feels like a great big heave of relief. After today I'm free for a month! Well, not really. There's exams and one more assignment to clear. It still feels so great to complete part of the work though.

Elmo Cheerios!