I've managed to scare off or offended the only person I want to help me get out of my mess.

messed up

My life's taken a drastic turn ever since i've moved into 16D. I have a great roomie, fantastic school environment, strange lovely creatures who's gonna be my professional support and much improved home life. But i don't feel happy. I feel tired and strain. I cant ever divide my time properly amongst the people i care about. I can't rest the way i need.

How I wish I can just be a sweetie pie, regardless crazy or not. I want to be taken out for a fun night not dates. But it's not falling my way. How i wish it is!