An idiot's ranting again. Just the other day huiting was telling me about keeping quiet while those crazy ones rant and rave. Its really effective. Coz the dargonlady is those aggressive type. She expects retorts. She relishes the replies. Coz she'll have even more reason to keep you in your place. The more I shut up, the more she'll get worked up.

Well, now that I've changed. Wahahha she's loudly mumbling now. I've managed to keep quiet. & she's getting louder coz its as if she's talking to a wall. She never has that from my bro. Or even my dad. We used to have screaming matches. & when vocal chords cant express the extremity, fists are raised. Now that I've shut up, she's getting crazier.

While it does give me a upper hand in things when I shut up, there's just this monster seething inside me. & when I do let it out, its aimed at an innocent. Most cases, its sucks. But I really do want her to get fucked up. Get all worked up. To explode and leave me alone.

The ironic thing is, she was lamenting why so many youngsters are leaving home or committing suicide. With people like her around, I don't doubt the statistcs of death. Like what the experts say, its not the diseases taking the lives of Singaporeans. Its the environment killing us. From an emotionally level first then move on to the physical body.

That thing is a product of Gen X. She turned out this way. IS there any link between it and her? Yes there is. Its the ideals and principles she grew up on which makes her the way she is. Her principles are funny but it comes from GenX no doubt. I'm sure dragonlady isnt the only one who's like that. She'll always be the control freak. That's why when she proclaims that she'll free me after the As, I feel like laughing.

I'm not the only one sniggering at her. Sad it maybe but she made herself out to be a pathetic victim. After all these years of dictationship, she can let go easily meh? Pui! Rubbish. But I'm not worried coz I'll be looking for a full day job. Business can be put on hold or I stay at the shop for the whole day. Just like what HuiTing plans, we'll work all day, then meet up for drinks and club at the end of the day. Shake off the fats ya know? Like shake off on da dancefloor kind of thing? Yea...when I'm drunk as hell that is...

That'll be life! Less meeting less friction. Maybe its high time I get an apartment or room of my own. Moving out will help in this unbalanced relationship I believe. From the day I stumbled into teens, we've hit an rocky patch. I know she's jealous. That I am given a chance at education, that my dad always places us kids above her, that I can wear the young clothes which would look funny on her. Maybe that's why her stupid bimbotic giggle irritates the shit out of me. Esp when salesperson says "WAH you very young hor! I tot this one your sista lei! So big le wor!"

Bullshit lor!!! Pui! Pui! Pui! I look damn young la! I wear uniform! Sister your head!! Pui! My dad's in the specs trade lei auntie. Get one. His brand is Puccini btw. Just the other day we went to the Gardens shop to look at the new stocks. I wanted this skirt but she insists it'll look horrible on me. I persisted and tried it on. It looks nice okies? Its very very nice lor! So she asked me to take off coz she wants to try. It looks horrible on her!! Wahahaha.

Anyway this entry is to let out the anger in me. It'll come across as a fucking brat who's unfilial. But really when you've met my mom, all thoughts of filial piety is just redundant. Trust me!

& I noticed my language's getting more AhLian. It must be due to the stupid Xiao AhLian talking on the phone in the bus. Damn!