Just came back from piano lesson. Actually its not just la...Its been hours...But the teacher was amusing today. We were playing this note and I had to learn half beat. I thought I was playing this blues score rather well but my fucking beat was all wrong! My ego gets....huge...at times. Wahahaha! So the teacher finally told me the mi jue! To play that score I need to be very chang qi... & we went back to 1+2+3+4+ Was like "wa lau...." Still I'm glad I learnt it all in one sitting. All from the way she played. I still know shit about half beat. I'm dumb or what?

On the way down to NTUC, this auntie in front of me was ticking her boy off. His crime: voicing his opinion of his piano teacher to his face(yes its uncommon to have a MALE piano teacher but they exist okies...). What is this shit?? Respect teachers like your parents?? Even in this age? Even when your teacher is bloody asshole who thinks himself the Casanova of Cristofori of Punggol branch?? When his face looks like its in a permanent disarrangement? Sheesh! Parents!

Speaking of parents, I'm reminded of my chinese paper compre today. Its a short commentary on western and eastern parents. It states that Asian parents are uptight and will stoop to anything to get through to the kid. AngMoh parents will give a free rein to their kids though. One thing good about that: the kids learn independence easier.

It even goes all the way to say the way these Asian parents pry into their kids, it turns their kids off even more. Which is completely and utterly true. Look at my freako of a mom. She doesn't get the meaning of PRIVACY. I can bloody explain it a million zillion times & my words will simply bounce off her. She's just....immune...to words such as FREEDOM, PRIVACY and HAPPINESS. She's the advocate of words such as DICTATOR, TOUGHNESS, TOTALITARIAN. What was she feed when a child to turn out this way?? But then my maternal family is very uptight about taboo issues, like sex and relationships. While I understand tehir take on it, it makes them all the more boring and creatures I find myself yawning at. My nature never fails to amaze me. I wonder where I get all this "western" hypes.

Since young I never did know the joy of making decisions. She make the rules and we simply obey. No question asked. Totally Singaporean. Totally Singapore Government. Not till I'm 13 then i learnt of my gong gong state. From then on, its downhill all the way for our relationship. Everything I did on the sly was me giving her the middle finger. The more she pried the more I shy. & I'll carry on till the day she lets me go. It is most probably when I have one leg into my grave.

P.S. My god! Channel U has this show on LOVE & MAKING LOVE. Singapore's going love crazy. I won't be caught in this epidermic. I generate this phenomenon. I'm a crazy-in-love kid. Who wonders when my fairytale will end.

I'm wearing the extra long strand of pearls over my kappa 5-year old sweater. I'm going siao liao. One good thing which comes out of it: Its the exact same shade of a milk pearl as the one my AhMa got me! I loves yous babes! Yous heard my words!