If I can't into uni? It may not be the end of the world, but its definitely the end for my parents. Perhaps my dad will accept it. He believes that my life's up to me to live the way I want. He would have granted me anything I want should my mom let him control us. I would have been a healthy kid with a childhood I choose. Instead of this struggling with life freak who's locked within a prison.

My mom would first freak out then blame everything on me. She may throw me out or cut me off from her life. But the most probable scenario is her coming to terms with it slowly and accept me again. I can heck about the rest of the relatives coz they don't mean much to me. But I'll be letting my parents down in terms of Asian values. Their status among the gossipers will be diminished. It'll set off a chain reaction. I'll cause everything pressure to fall on my bro.

I'm so tired. Just throw away this life and live one of my own. Run away for a few months maybe they'll appreciate me more. Just wish I had the freedom to. Holding out for 3more months, and I'll be free? Will I?