Secrets. Sound so wrong. Esp when psychiatrists urge people to open up. But there's just something in us which we simply couldn't share. That locked compartment which only you would know the key. It makes me feel secure. It makes me heavy with dread.

I'm looking for the perefct postcards to mail my secrets. I found one which suits me perfect. But after thinking of the words to put down in ink, I find that I don't want it to be a fact. Once I've published my secrets in black and white, it's finalised forever. I'm still hoping it's just a dream. A bubble I can burst easily. I'm looking for the person to hand me the needle. The needle to burst this horrible thing.

_baby_
Is doing yoga right now. Was playing the fool by twisting everywhere. And she can fold her baby body all the way into herself. That's baby bones for you. Was talking to my cousin on Sunday. A 13yr old is going after my 12-yr old niece. She told the boy her mom said with no 1million in his account, he can forget about going after her. What a cool mom!

Btw I strike a deal with her. Lose my ugliness by end of year, I'm going to LV's gala ball with her. She taught to get a guy with 10million in his account. Only then, talk about marriage. Its a deal.I'm on my way to le high society.

_dad_
Made up with mom. Coz it would just be too bad for their faces if we show up at aunt's house looking like we are having Cold War. So they made up. And he sang her "their" love song. All's well.

But for me? I'm not to wear contacts anymore. He's slowly cutting my supplies. He said its not good for the eyes. Supposedly. He made me even more hasty for Lasik. Initially he said it'll be my 21st birthday present. Now he told me I have to work for it myself. Hope he'll change his mind.

_mom_
I asked the Lasik op of him for my 21st birthday. I gave my mom an easier task. I made her promise me a diamond studded pendant of my name. She said yes. I can't wait for 21.

Just had an alteration auntie up to collect the clothes. And my mom was so rude to her. She says she wants us to be polite and courteous. Yet she shows people that sickening face of hers. Hypocrite. Of course nobody is better than her family. My aunts are the best and my grandma's the bestest. Whatever shit.