What would you do if war's raging on right in your house? What would you say if there's a insane and a violent sod? What would you feel when you're tryin to study and they fling chairs all over the room? What would you do when they pull you into the war zone?

I did nothing. Simply listened to the ravings of a mad woman. Just that its not me she's ragging on. It's a relief to say I'm not the target of all that nuclear bomb. It gave me even greater pleasure to pin point the culprit. None other than that excuse of a brother. His crime : to go for a movie without telling her and taking money from his own account.

I felt like telling her to fuck off when she kept going on at my bro for the missing sum. She has no sense of privacy at all. None. She holds the accounts, she keeps the keys. That's tyranny. That's being over-possessive. I don't see the fuss that had to kicked just coz he "went for a movie". We are in our late teens. we should be granted our freedom if anything. Our father agrees with us. One comment of his : "Your kids are not your pets. You can't tie them to you forever." I doubt if she understands though. Her love has become a burden. It's so heavy to bear the weight.

I hate her for damaging my family life. I hate her for disrupting the harmony. I detest my bro for being the instigator. I despise him for striking at his own mom. He has no respect in his bones. Only for my dad. I can't say I hate my dad. Yet he's not someone I would gladly love either. Mom defamed dad in front of us and she accused him of using us against her. My bro maybe. But never me.

That freak of a bro has no respect. I just wish his enlistment will come earlier and we'll be rid of him for that period. By the time he's back, I'll be able to spend my days out, not having to face him. I hate him just below my mom. But the hate will never be balanced by love.

a happy family. is what i want.