Just painted my nails and one of them is spoilt! So much for dressing nicely in full package for him. Stupid brand. I changed nail polish every week. Yet I feel the colours are not enough. It's as if the colours i don't get in life are reflected on my nails. Not the cheery colours regretably. The dull normal colours. So let me. Boring.

Talked to SiewLing not long ago. I find her irritating. Not coz she's "below me" or frumpy. But coz given the circumstances she's in, she never do realise she's crazy. To go one step further would be saying she's scheming. I seem so mean and petty to piss a friend of mine like this. But if she were to be a better person who's willing to change, I would have accepted her; the past, the present as well as the future. I'll make myself clear in case I've become the villain here.

Since secondary school, she's so damn boy-crazy. She wants to enjoy life later on, I don't understand why don't she strive for it then? Instead of always dreaming to getting a bf, the richer the better. My mom always tell me a rich bf would mean a family with background. No proper family will accept a girl who don't complete any studies into their rigid family. Not unless she's at least capable in certain ways or at the very least, hardworking. Ling and I bore this into her for 2 years but it came to nothing. She is hardworking. Only when it comes to boys.

Her scheming ways? One perfect example would be her arranging to meet up with an online friend. She wanted Ivy to go along. Her reason: "You're ugly. Even more so than me. If you go along, he'll never look at you. He'll like me only. You can be my sort of assistant." When Ivy told me that I felt like smacking Siew! What a friend indeed!

Lately she got dumped. On valentine's day of all days. I pitied her then. Coz she thought he would be the one she will marry. No point laughing at her. She's navie in that sense. I just wished she had been tough on him. To dump her on that day of all days! Can't he just simply bear it for a few more days?? She defended him after that! Dignity? Where's hers??

Talk about stupidity. I thought I was dumb. She's even dumber. Or she's not. I don't know how to describe her. She got involved with another guy. And she thinks she wants to MARRY HIM!!! She's ...........now that he's in army, his true colours are showing. I don't mean to burst that blissful bubbles of hers. But if my bf can call and sms me everyday at least 10times, I'm sure her bf can do the same too. If I can get jeremy on the phone during the nigth, she should have been able to too. But its either his phone is off or he's too tired/busy/distracted to talk to her. Okies, then at least sms her. But no! He says it'll waste his battery. Shit! Told her he's not worth it. She told me I'm being jealous! Yeah, Hey, I'm jealous that my bf calls everyday. Jeremy why can't you call less? Why can't you stop smsing me? Crazy shit. Can't be bothered about her.