He's fresh into camp. I'm sitting in a gloomy room. A mirror of inner.

He's gone gone gone. Nothing much to say. We said our farewells yesterday. Well its not exactly how i plan it to be. But at least its better than nothing. I'm glad i got to get out yesterday. And it was good enough for me. Not that good...like i said though, better than nothing. Nice day. Hot day. But i made the effort to dress up for him. The first time i can go out with him in home clothes. Absolutely have to dress up. Otherwise he don't want me.


I wanted to be there today. Circumstances forbid though.
1st: I can't possibly go out at 2pm till don't-know-what-time.
2nd: He doesn't have enough ticket to allow me a space to go along.
3rd: His parents don't know about us.
4th: He can't let his family know me. except for his sister.
5th: I hate having to send him off.


He said he can't bring me along to the ferry terminal. He asked if i understand. Of course i understand. How on earth could i not. I wish i could refuse to acknowledge this refusal to take me along. But he has valid reasons to support his case. With 5 tickets, he can only afford to bring his family along. He can't spring a surprise on them last minute. We'll turn out like Monster-in-law. I just feel that today's so anti-climax. Yesterday's not according to plans. At least i've got a mail and day and sms and calls from him.


Edwin babe, I will keep an open mind as to the future. But i can safely say he's the best decent guy whom i've ever got. Saying i love him (if love can be cultivated in sucha short time) isn't exaggerating.


I love Mr Soh.