-Madness-

Madness. It's absolute madness. That woman is crazy. Yet again. Sometimes i wonder why i'm so stupid. It must be coz of the squashing of the brain whenever there's an impact. If only i had grown and defied rules, I would throw that woman out of throne. Ballistic. I don't know what words describe her anymore. Unreasonable yes. Crazy yes. Loser yes. How i wish i can hate her forever. As long as i can keep away or avoid her for as long as possible, my world will be a humane place.

-Sexuality talk-

There's all this hype about sexuality and teens. The uprising number of abortions and the casual attitudes of Gen-Y towards sex. What's their point? The videos are cheesy to say the least. Who in the world talks and acts like them in the video? The worst point would be they will worsen the situation instead of bringing positive awareness of the problem.

One who's been there, done that may feel awkard. One who's experienced it may feel it rakes up the shame of past. One who's not been caught and has to pretend to be goody-two-shoes may feel pressurised. One who's sitting in there nodding at the appropriate times may feel hypocritical. Those who know may no longer be able to suppress the secert life of the One. One may feel driven to a corner alone. One maybe the only one who ever feels this way. I am the One. How would you handle a case like me if i were reported? I don't want to be just a statistic.

-Living in a Nutshell-

Comes a time when i run away, i'll turn up someplace, with a case in stake.
Driven by HER rules, HER laws and HER ways.
What's with the mind of people as such?
Making lives miserable.

-3rd month-

16.05.05 yet again. Time of that month again. Did nothing but went Sushi Tei. He's never been so i was doing him a service. Restuarants restuarants restuarants. When we'r broke and left with naught. Tummy felt like bursting. His belly was fighting with his boobs to enter a room first. I was almost in labor. It was a nice day. A mediocre day. Better than normal day. Coz its the special starting day.

First day in term taking bus home. That's when i realise he's worth so much more. I don't mean it in the manipulative way. I'm just trying to get use to life after he's gone. and today's when i realise it's difficult. I'm worse than before.

Left with 5days.