i cant slp.Cant cant slp. I'm tired.My eyes' protesting.But my mind's woorking.Churning and grinding like a chained wheel. So many issues. So many doubts.So many questions. I'm lost.

I'm acquitted of my crimes.It just simply got me thinking.Is my character so tainted, that my closest kins are doubting me?am i so questionable that my words are cheap and my explanations wasted?or is it coz i'm detestable?am i so easy to dismiss, so much so that i hold no gravity?i ceased to exist once out of sight?

I went through my reports and others' comments, i dun see the ger they see. I vaguely remembered being her once, but all that was just faded past. I knew i lost her once i messed. messed with identity,with fate,with trust.I played too much and lost too much.To gain back my pure world of white and black.I'm simply a hypocrite,a leech feeding on blood-the essence of life.

-For a good ger, i'm a bad ger. For a bad ger, I'm a good ger.-Where am i? Neither here nor there.

Ms Ruk believes my shell hides a star within.I'm sorry i'm just a rotten apple.My star's lost.I'm gone.

-Ting, Yun,Ling & Joce, pull me through-

~so not goin skool.get me an ice bag~