The clock strikes twelve,my castle dwell.
To dungeons i'm thrown,to beasts i know.
Clawing frantic,biting ferociously.
They mocked at me deranged.
The superficial pain.
I'm lost forever.Hid from the world.
Where will i be,come morning again?

It was sad to know school's the only place i go,without worries or thoughts,of glooms n sorts.
well of coz there's the fear of lessons and the pressure of studies.But these are rather minute,compared to what i'm facing.

Cutting oneself doesnt help. But at least physical wounds heal. Even if a scar's left, it simply reminds one occasionally of that time,that long long past. A cut within one itself, never do stop bleeding truly. Think abt it.

Things at home are looking up.However, I'm still sore. I feel like such a brat for ignoring my parents. Yet i dont see any sense in admitting fault. The plain reason is I didnt commit any wrong!Mayeb they do sense it, maybe they realised their wrong. I know i cant expect an apology,so i revert to normal. Just that i felt so alienated.So out of place.So isolated. That's when i realise, I'm alone again.

After a while, I'm getting tired. It seriously was never my fault. Just that i happen to be thinking too much, wondering too much and guessing too much. But if i were secure(if EVER) i know i would never have my doubts. Where then is that promise?Where then is my security?

Did my mom's words prove itself right? That i pay a price for everything nice? The fool the fool. How do i tell the truth from lies?How do i separate the casanovas from the romeos? How do i sieve through the dirt for the essence?

-The knowledge i will never learn-

-Coz i have no need of it any longer-

-I am what i needed.-

-Myself unto myself-