When i was just a lil ger, i believed everybody was nice.By 3, i learned e world.I was taught i wasnt good enough.But i formed my views and dreams though.I hoped i never had to come across the wicked queens and beasts in life.My dread finally occurred at oen moment.5mins was all it took.To tarnish all i've built.

I'm no longer pure n innocent.Through no fault of mine.But i tainted myself further yet.That i had only myself to blame.*The shame of sham i bear for years*The consequences i didnt thought entails.It came in the form of guilt revenge.I regretted what i did.But there's no turning back is there?I'm forever now the ger he sees.

I hate nazeer for starting the thread.For smashing my ideals.For breaking my will.I hate brian for taking advantage of the situation.For doing me further in.I hate samuel for taking me as what he thought.The easy person whom i was.I hate myself for tangling in webs.For soiling myself.For being a dirty linen.For having a past which i have to hide in closet.

Hypocrite me.If i were still a virgin now, will i still say pre-marital sex is fine? I dont want people to judge me.IS that why my answer was thus?But i were to preach preserving oneself for that one special person,I'm so much more a bitych aint i? I'll be denying myself the chance to be myself.I can no longer be on that side of things again.

I'm so tainted.