Juz had a conversation wv Ting, She's depressed. And she's alone. Well not literally....[You may be surrounded by crowds and yet you can still feel so alone]I feel as if i'm becoming more like her....It may be a good thing but not so too.....

Mom always ask where is the ger who used to oblige and bent to anyone? Where's the ger who used to be motivated to have her bright future? I used to be proud of achieving grades in school. But it was for my mom....She wanted me in 1st stream, i went. She wanted me to study i did. But i let her down at teh critical moment. she hated that moment ever since.

den i discovered my voice and i tested her patience. She forgave me time and time again. but i pushed her time and time again. She didnt give up but she wasn't what she used to be. Wenhui used to be her everything. and i was just the background. Recently i've become a prop and wenhui the sun. But a prop is so much more visible than a background. Will she ever take me as equal ?

School used to be a second home. But Jc is juz like my pri days. The loaded smiles and hidden claws. The sharpened knives aiming at you. The mockery lacing the voices. Haiz....skool is so scary. I don't like going.

I getting frwaking sick almost every month. it sux alot. so much so dat my teacher's suspected me of fraud. dragonlady believe its due to astrological reasons. wateverrr. the cough's been weeks! argh! stupid doc!freaking quack!

I thought the ghosts were buried and gotten rid. But they're catching up and gaining on me. What's wrong wv me? i wonder if its real. I ponder if i'm taken seriously. or is it the case of my duty done, my service offered, den i'm chucked and forgotten?I'm thinking so much. I'm going crazy.

-I need assurance. I need me. I need acceptence. I need stability.-