levonne's daddy lent his notebook.cool~~anyway, saw her after such a long while...hasnt grown much but much naughtier.lolz lots of teeth now, biting anything and anyone.so like me~aw~~

anywayz anywayz, been talking to quite a few of you....i know what you guys think and your comments are really nice...but the ting is, cant you guys decide on one thing to tell me....i'm calling for help....your confusion only adds on to mine...i dun mean to sound so ungrateful...and i know i will come to a conclusion myself too...but now i need people to take it out on. so u guys have to be the ones.

issues issues....there's so many and yet there's so little...its only one but it seems so huge...pick a flower n pull its petals....take the plunge and throw it out...what's the outcome....deciding now....

Com crashed!argh!!! i'm goin to die without my com.

had a major talk wv my mom yesterday...and it changed my perspective about certain tings...i was simply thinking about some issues over the weekend. her talk came just at the right time...and for now, confused i may be, i need to clear off some issues...i juz hope i hv the courage to do it...

dat bumblebee is buzzing around me. lolz nag nag nag. *muack* his naggin shall pull me thru the next hour b4 my maths. i dun feel like goin. but everybody say must go....so i must go....otherwise i'm dead meat....but i saw lynn and adam go home...i wan to go home...its so boring...the heartless creatures left me alone in skool...i wan to go home...called my mama to book a cab for me...but she says i'm lazy bum...i wan to go home...by e time i reach home it will be nite...my estate is u-lu u-lu...i wan to go home...walk alone in the dark....i wan to go home...

-i was brave to be the ger i was. i'm drowned in the ger i am to be.-

Juz had a conversation wv Ting, She's depressed. And she's alone. Well not literally....[You may be surrounded by crowds and yet you can still feel so alone]I feel as if i'm becoming more like her....It may be a good thing but not so too.....

Mom always ask where is the ger who used to oblige and bent to anyone? Where's the ger who used to be motivated to have her bright future? I used to be proud of achieving grades in school. But it was for my mom....She wanted me in 1st stream, i went. She wanted me to study i did. But i let her down at teh critical moment. she hated that moment ever since.

den i discovered my voice and i tested her patience. She forgave me time and time again. but i pushed her time and time again. She didnt give up but she wasn't what she used to be. Wenhui used to be her everything. and i was just the background. Recently i've become a prop and wenhui the sun. But a prop is so much more visible than a background. Will she ever take me as equal ?

School used to be a second home. But Jc is juz like my pri days. The loaded smiles and hidden claws. The sharpened knives aiming at you. The mockery lacing the voices. Haiz....skool is so scary. I don't like going.

I getting frwaking sick almost every month. it sux alot. so much so dat my teacher's suspected me of fraud. dragonlady believe its due to astrological reasons. wateverrr. the cough's been weeks! argh! stupid doc!freaking quack!

I thought the ghosts were buried and gotten rid. But they're catching up and gaining on me. What's wrong wv me? i wonder if its real. I ponder if i'm taken seriously. or is it the case of my duty done, my service offered, den i'm chucked and forgotten?I'm thinking so much. I'm going crazy.

-I need assurance. I need me. I need acceptence. I need stability.-

skool was okies....finally finally went back to skool...all the teachers miss me like mad! didnt realise i'm so lovable. Coool~i need an extra head. to change it fine when i feel bad enough.i'm doin rubbis. i cant tink straight.anotony n cleopatra.i'm agrippa.

-i see him almost everyday.-

Up up and away! Went oooutt with germy today. Turn out to be rather good, save those times when he patted me like a little ger. Hey! I'm nt dat short okies! but made him drive all the way up den back down to town. nt my fault though....ask him to gif me e car le....haiz...he dun wan so selfish....haiz....nvm next time when i hv my own car my car plate will be "i'm a princess"

-i know a ger who dreams of ghosts, she'll make u breakfast, she'll make u toast- me

Today was super boring. Monday blues~oooh~we watched "fall of houe of usher" for lit. dats so pathetic. freaking fiction. in those super conservative times, e guys goes go crazy if they glimpse a female's ankle!much less grab her n kiss her!wahaha stupid show.

n i bought a card for my mortal.he better appreciate it.hvnt pass to adam to pass to him too.

e doc gave mac lozenges~yay~nice~

The butterfly gang came over today. Met BaoBei Jie at pasir ris. That taitai walk so slow....make me wait soooo long....lolz nah he accompanied me on phone n bitched abt dat charcoal non-stop. my goodness!it was a full day topic for him!

Went over to compass point to meet ting n yun. and edwin went shopppiiing~a birthday card for *ahem*, shirt for himself[i chose it! n it looks so nice!yay~] n facial wipes....went gaga over e cosmetics! onli him n ting uses make up anywayz~had mac n walk ard abit. saw tis earring ar!!!! but didnt hv enuf on me. wasted!

Came over to my hse. watch "shall we dance" n "white chicks"-supersuper nice!den messed ard with e cosmetics n my keyboard. n ting left for yang.haiz....heartless creature....as she says "heavy colour light frenz" haiz haiz....n it was byebye~

My mom-to send me off to make-up course. why on earth do i need dat???

Was juz chatting abt childhood coz of my kiddie photos. lolz remembered when i was ard 5 or 6, my dad bought terrapins for me! n ninja turtle was sooooo hot! i wanted to eb one so bad too. so i swore myself to my terrapins. n i lived to eb a turtle for dat few days.i crawled all over e hse.i refuse to egt up till meal times. n i brought e tank in wv me during baths.but one fine day, monster wenqi decided to hv a go at her precious n there goes the end of e poor green creatures.

if i were a buddhist, i'll believe i'll be reincarnated as terrapins in my next life. den i'll be tortured to death by my owner. if i were a christian, i'll believe i'll burn in hell if i dun confess tis sin of mine. if i were a muslim, i'll.......duno.....but seeing as i'm wenqi, i'm still e angel dat i am. lolz

Went to send my aunt off at the airport. Uncle boon kwan,auntie mui hoon, ms mui siang, uncle raymond, aunt siewhwa n all e rest of e family turned up. not much to see....missin her already....

saw desmond at e airport. he was hiding from me. dats quite dumb of him.

besides dat nth much....had sambal calamari, sambal prawns sambal everyting for dinner. n i'm payin for it. argh!

We're playing angel n mortal with our junior class.I know no one from that class so we had to draw lots to get our mortal. And they are our angels too. So far i've yet to send anyting to my angel. His name is Jerome. Sounds so oooh...... but then guys won't appreciate much of what we are doing. So actually i neednt even bother writing nicely.

Skipped PE. Yes. Again. But Commando Lee is irritating anyway. Plus he takes in any excuse i can cook up. Just like Mrs Loh. lolz my face must be so angelic they cant help but believe my crap. Had econs just now and i manage to crap my way through. As Germy says, i hold a PhD in craptology.

Its such a boring day....but i'm going out after skool! Finally finally. after so long i'm meeting alvin. He was just complaining and he got his way.

People, plz pay attention : WenQi is no longer single and available. Interested parties plz take ur queue no. and line up. lolz sooo germy, this satisfy ur question of yesterday nite?

I ddint mean to pon skool today but i really dun feel well enuff. lolz fell out of the bloody bed coz of the stupid headache. argh! lolz my mom tot what happened to me. but then she expected it i guess. after all i threw up last night.

I'm really hungry. but wats e point of eating when u vomit all that u've taken in? sickening. dats like wasting food. ting goin to get ice cream. yumyum. i go eat chocolates ba.

juz realise my printers nt workin! n at tis time! freakin hell! i need my lit notes! haiz....now i've got to go skool early juz to print it out. stupid stupid. if onli i'm a witch.

Today was Learning Journy day! Went to art musuem. "Qi ah, bring your water bottle and raincoat hor." And i bring a sandwich box along ba. And wellingtons. Yellow rubber boats.

But its quite cool actually! there's an area in which we can build our own town wv soft blocks. 06 went down to work n build our world. Sat on our skool n held a terrorism attack on suntec city. and we stamped all over malaysia. oh man! it feels so gd to be gaints in our little town.

Did anthony n cleopatra for lit today. Tml there's a faculty test. On gothic paper. Franknstein and Dracula. It soooo broing and dracula is almost like a lizard la! n the test is at 4.30.... argh! so late! i wana go home. i wan to go home!

Germy fulfilled his challenge. sooo.....

Why is everybody insistent that i'm moody? lolz Ting even try to comfort me?! huh!?! what's wrong with my looks? i looked like the world owe me or what? hm....

anyway Xiaoxia asked for her book to be put in our locker. Initially i gave e excuse of our locker being full. Den she asked ting n ting turned to me! Turns out she wanted me to reject xiaoxia! but i missed e hint n said yes! argh! now i'm living my regret! arggggghhhhh! yun yun! yun yun! why didnt u squeeze ur bag in juz a little earlier?

haris swallowed a fish bone n he tot he'll die. lolz. my poor baby.

eunice isnt wv mimi anymore. lynn isnt wv 01 anymore. adam isnt wv sharifa anymore. i'm nt wv remus anymore. onli zhaoting is still wv imran. my pw group rox! we r movin on babes!

gp todae was interestin. what's our view on sex,love n marriage. my own: pre-marital sex is okies as long as u know what ur gettin urself into. i tink everybody is tryin to promote virginity is juz coz of e stigma attached to pre-marital sex. there's double standards for gers in ti society. guys slp ard n ppl dismiss it as natural. gers slp ard n she gets gossiped n called names like slut or whore.

den what makes marriage so special dat sex is onli natural in marriage? coz u trust dat person wv ur future. n u trust dat person will take responsibility for his actions, for u, for this family which u will build. love doesnt necessarily comes into e picture. if it does, its onli once in a lifetime.

"I had my perfect dancing partner for 19years. Now that he's gone, I don't hope to find another. I was lucky to even have it once. Some people don't even find it in their lifetimes." -Ms Mitz [Shall we dance?]

Ms rukhaidah says in a marriage, e honeymoon period ends with the 1st fart. If ever i marry one i love, i shall hold my fart forever. if i marry for money, to hell wv the farts! i'm gona stuff myself crazy.

Edwin edwin~i check on him le! He doesnt look bad. He seems decent. He's pretty clean cut. Shy boy. I say go for it! Don't be so bothered by this pic la. You know where his instincts lies so why bother ya? He gave you a dice. Just take it the way you interpret it then? He wants you to make the first move? I don't know...I may be a girl...but not a girl's girl...you know what i mean. So anyways keep me updated!

Ting went to sentosa. Joce received 99roses. Nat got the ring she wanted (lolz your hint wasnt lost on him then babe!) May went out romance tour, courtsey of her bf. Ling went to Long John. Yun went into depression. Louisa had a diamond pendant. Durrah is still out on date. Wenqi went home. To be aunt agony for the day. Justin's in trouble. Siewling's in trouble. hm...

SiewLing got dumped today....None other than baby David. So what if she gave all she could to him? so what if she waited for him for two years? so what if she faithfully stayed by him through thick and thin? He still leaves her anyway. What timing than today? Cant he juz simply stick it together for a few more days and let her have at least a gd valentine's day? haiz....guys...

not all guys i guess. nat's, may's,durrah's,louisa's,ting's,etc etc have got the decent guys.
i'm waiting for mine. *winks*

AND what is love? It is a doll dress'd up
For idleness to cosset, nurse, and dandle;
A thing of soft misnomers, so divine
That silly youth doth think to make itself
Divine by loving, and so goes on
Yawning and doting a whole summer long,
Till Miss's comb is made a pearl tiara,
And common Wellingtons turn Romeo boots;
Then Cleopatra lives at number seven,
And Antony resides in Brunswick Square.
Fools! if some passions high have warm'd the world,
If Queens and Soldiers have play'd deep for hearts,
It is no reason why such agonies
Should be more common than the growth of weeds.
Fools! make me whole again that weighty pearl
The Queen of Egypt melted, and I'll say
That ye may love in spite of beaver hats.
December 30, 1816.

John Keats

Even he claims mortals aren't capable of love. What's love?
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It's getting late. But early bedtime. Heck its only 11.30! My hair's not dry. The headache's back. The cramps are worse. Too much cold stuff again. There's different types of people in the world. There's this one kind who obviously knows what will be the eventual outcome but still go ahead with the action. I'm that kind. Having period will always bring about cramps. Taking cold food just add on to it. haiz....dumb bell.

Was over at aunt's place. The kids went crazy. Taught them abit of piano. Played a duet with Yuki. And Niki shat in her panties. Kids. But Valerie's a dear. Yixhun swear to marry me when he grows ups. My baby boy. Aw....

Overheard the adults talking about Liping anyway. Seems like we've lost her completely. She's totally changed. But then it took them quite long to notice it. I mean she's never been the same since sec school. I don't mind whatever that she's doing now, after all everybody has a choice. If it's to be a mistake, she has to make it to realise it. So why are they so bothered?

Was hiding in the room with Dana and she chanced a question on me. "Can love ever be happily ever after like shrek?" Simple question. The answer, though, can be complicated enough. Coz i don't believe in that. Being a girl, i used to believe in thta. My parents were the perfect example. But as i grew up over the years, love takes on a different meaning altogether. Ms Neo says my parents are the ultimate couple. But nobody sense the turbulance beneath the surface. The harsh words, the glares, the coldness, the leashings.

I can't blame my mother for being paraniod. Neither can i blame my father for being impatient. But they manage to stick it together. Will i get to? Most probably not. I promised to not get involved too much. Coz what i give out will never be returned. It wasn't a try or two. I dabbed at it for half a dozen times. Doesn't work means it doesn't. Coz its not for me dat"s why

Pink and red is everywhere juz b'coz vday's is here. It gets irritating when i see e starry eyed holding up e walkway. lolz n my frustration got e better of me todae!

Cine was sooo packed n i was already agitated coz my darling mama kept calling. E couple in front got the edge of my knife. Oooh....too bad~anyway they were walking damn slow coz e ger was making eyes at her boy. Dat wasnt their crime. I convicted them on e grounds of slowin down traffic.So i had no choice but to speak my mind. Well maybe i had a choice BUT they were e ones at fault! Nat laughed like mad after my speech....but i dun tink its funny....

There must be sumting wrong wv everybody todae too. Nat n i were mistaken as lesbians for 2times! Freaking shit!

1st: i met nat on e train so she hugged me. since its been weeks since i saw her! n tis guy gave us e funny look. feel like gorgin his eyes out! den coz e train was crowded, we decided to hold onto each other. he stared at us juz coz our fingers were intertwined! wat era does he lives in for goodness sake!! hasnt he heard of gerrfriends???

2nd was worse! we were at subway n nat claims she doesnt wan e whole biscuit. so we decided to share. e trouble is we r irritated at all e couples. lolz sour grapes? nah~not us. we were surrounded by them. Brillant nat came up wv e idea of us pretending to be couple den. me n my big mouth! said:"its so romantic darling" n e waiter clearin e next table heard me. stupid nut went back to e counter to tell his colleagues abt us n they gave us e sympathic smiles! argh!! they r soooo mean!

Anyway its over~ luisa is still e same.juz dat she's practically engaged. saw her bf for e 1st time.hm....looks old but she tinks he's gd for her n its gd enuff for me too. guess its hard for thomas. after all he liked her for years n waited so long for her to be back in sg n she brings her bf along, obviously in love land, floatin on bliss. poor guy.

Nat suggested goin out as a group on vday,seeing as we dun hv dates. lolz agenda:to disturb all datin couples. lolz to go into movies n sit behind couples "nat nat look look!wat r they doin!" lolz oh my gosh! i'm such a witch! but den my angelic side took over n i decided to gif couple huntin a miss. Bless me!

Took pictures n pictures n pictures n my mama chose my best shot!

Its boring in skool...with ting beside me, distracting me, smsing crazy.Wat am i to do???wat's a ger to do when the skool is out to bore her to death?!?

Why is it that gers are hard to please? We moan about not having caring guys as bfs. We complain to death about the indecent guys who treat us like shit. Yet when a guy who fulfils the criteria of the most sensitive guy on earth,that there's this guy who's one of the endangered species, who actually cared about the little details, who can actually listen to the grumbles n the silliness, we get tired of them easily.

Its nt so much of being different.But rather it has become almost routine that a ger no longer lives in anticipation.E questions, e concern, e calls. It has all become taxing when we need our space. Alone.

I like being by myself at times. I like thinking about nothing and everything. I don't need someone with me all the time. But lately it has somehow changed. The nights are quiet if my phone doesnt ring. It gets lonely when there's no sms.