Sunday, January 30, 2005
Depression is moving in.
It's lurking just slightly there.
A gentle push and it will chase.
The sunshine, fluffy, buttercups.
Are slowly stealing fast escape.
Alone, concussed, lost in between.
Doomed to destined eternal gloom.
Bubbled screams, ear muffed glance.
The coldness within, at me, glared.
The battle lost, will beaten.
Time to let go, to another world.
10:49 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
how does one comfort a pissed sumone?
suggestion was to let one does wateva one wans to do.
okies den.
10:13 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
Yesterday by far was e best day since holidays! Ting held her bdae party early. initially rather worried abt joining her other frenz. after all i've met leon n i cant really click wv him. but surprise surprise! we got along juz fine.well all but tidus i guess....quiet guy...my bdae must eb like too!!!but anyway yang is pretty rubbish. lolz~best bf la okies?
for e first time in record, i finished my work!haiz...but no encouragements...
n i learnt sumting knew todae abt my jie mei...it astounded me yes...but sumhow i guess its been expected all along...juz how do i go abt bringin out tis topic?sensitive ....
n germy is gettin irritatin lolz
10:54 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Missed econs everyting today again...i know its bad but den considering the options i have now, i'm feeling complacent. Arrogant ya. Silly yes. But my interest really isn't in econs. But tml i'm going to attend tutorials. Yupz,
encourage me.
Another thing is e xiaoxia affair is finally heading somewhere. When skool started, i was wondering what to do abt her. But
my worries proved unduly. She is trying very hard to fit in with me and ting. After all e things she did, i felt as if she owed me! dats kinda scary coz though i maybe fiesty by nature, the
emotions i hold for her isnt wat i normally experience. It isnt exactly hatred yet i cant feel any sympathy or pity for her. haiz....
its so complicated...
Went with ting to meet siew yang n his frenz after skool. It wasnt too bad. Till it got to e part where siew yang becomes all lovey dovey. ~lol~ should hv cut in n ask to be e 3rd party. Anyway, it was fun hanging out wv them.
Ting, find me bf la den u neednt worry i feel left out.
Raymond n justin's lying low. but raymond finally touched down on earth again. preparing for his final year and presentation n all. rather nice though. he tried making time for me to watch "meet e focker" coz i hvnt watched it. said its very nice n wish to watch it again. But
y trouble a guy who's so busy?
Hm...desmond called. i was busy. i called him, he's busy. He's
another complication.
Seed of Chucky~Any takers?Only sat is free for me le.
10:00 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Memories in darkness glared and stared,
Pushed to the end where no one cared.
Stumbled and faltered,groping on,
the slightest slip of light was grabbed.
The weight of worries it couldn't bear,
giving way and abandoned there,
proved too much to grin and bear.
A muffled goodbye was all that's left,
a world of feelings left untend.
10:42 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
-Brown Eyes-Remember the first day when I saw your faceRemember the first day when you smiled at meYou stepped to me and then you said to meI was the woman you dreamed aboutRemember the first day when you called my houseRemember the first day when you took me outwe had butterflies although we tried to hideand we both had a beautiful nightThe way we held each others hand, the way we talked, the way we laughedit felt so good to find true loveI knew right then and there you were the oneohhhhhh,I know that he loves me cause he told me so I know that he loves me cause his feelings showWhen he stares at me you see he cares for meYou see how he is so deep in loveI know that he loves me cause its obviousI know that he loves me cause its me he trustand he's missing me if he's not kissing meand when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it soRemember the first day, the first day we kissedRemember the first day we had an argumentwe apologized and then we compromisedand we've haven't argued sinceRemember the first day we stopped playing gamesRemember the first day you fell in love with meit felt so good for you to say those wordscause I felt the same way tooI'm so happy, so happy that your in my lifeand baby now that your apart of me you've showed meshowed me the true meaning of love(the true meaning of love)and I know he loves me___________________________________________________________________
*where's my brown eyes?*found it finally*geez*after such a long time of asking ard!
Ladies n gentlemen, plz applaud Darren! ~yay~
On behalf of Darren:thank u thank u~ den he'll
blush n flushed. Haiz...men are not supposed to be shy ya?
Skool skool!! argh! i regret not doing my homework! But at least i still hv time to complete them.
Old habits die hard. Last minute's work is still my speciality. Ting is pushin me to do my work. Hey bao bei! Don't nag me too much okies? lolz My dragonlady at home is more than enough.
Baby Levonne is sick. Again. Poor baby. anyway she's just 7mths! soon she shall learn to speak.
Seen a doc for headache. He says look here, see there, do this, imitate that, etc.
Wateva for my MC! =P*sweet*sweet sweet sumone*sweet concern*sweet attention*sweet sweet everyting*sweet**germy says its for him*~rolls my eyes~
9:31 PM
Monday, January 03, 2005
First day of skool=gossip day
Being girls, skool reopening is e equivilant of catching up on lost gossip.
yak abt shoes, shoes, anklets, bracelets, watches, etc n e what nots. How predictable can girls get? But den again, if girls doesnt possess such traits, e planet is such a damn boring place. Girls shud be allowed to yak all day.
04A06 = Queens of Yakity World
Anyway being skool, with teachers n staff changing, we get time off to ourselves. So all tutorials shelved for e week. Onli lectures r supposed to be attend.
~yay~left by 10.50 todae! if onli everyday can be a skool reopen day....
Yes, i took neoprint again after such a long abstain from it!
~cool~Soon though...life's gona suck...depression is but a minute away
7:30 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Skool's on from tml! Homework has to be done. No more slacking le....how depressing can that get? but at least i'm going to c
ting,yun n weijie~
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Miss you guys tremendously~Edwin u went hongkong, better get me sumting. Or else u can forget abt lunch ya? Long time since i had neoprint, tml shall be e day!
Timetable~is rather lax tis year...
going home early most of e time. Dun even feel like cuming for sum of e days. Yay~~ CLA is shift forward to morning lessons! Well anyway As tis year, better work hard.
Remind me once in a while!Nerd~nerd i shall be! specs will be my fashion statement wahaha~nvm nvm, i shall make a swearing oath.
I, Princess Tan, shall wear white shoes n socks(finally!) faithfully, not have more than 2 pairs of earrings on my ears, n stop doodling when lessons r on.
Babes i shall promise not to cut my hair anymore (juz trim) n try to cut down my weight (edwin pray hard).
I'm gona be a doll okies? den i can buy barbie clothes, wear barbie shoes, everyting barbie.
Germy stop reading my blog~
9:42 PM